I’m not sure why i disappeared. Honestly, when I started the blog anew an dedicated myself to “sweating my hair out” I had a lot going on. Not really with me but with someone that I really cared about. They were going through trial and tribulations and somehow I ended up caring the weight and burden of their troubles.
I think a lot of times people who struggle with their weight or struggle with trying to gain control of a portion of their life go through this as well. Where they concentrate on someone else or something else to run away from whats really important. In my case the most important person should be MYSELF. I lost focus. I didn’t gain weight but I wasn’t losing weight either. I was eating above the calories I set for myself and I was not moving my body.
So one day I just snapped out of it. I would say it was around the beginning of October. Since the beginning of October I have knocked off weight consistently every week. I’m officially down 50lbs for the year since I started this journey in January.
My journey has not been a diet. It has been a total lifestyle change. Instead of drinking juice all the time. I eat fruit and only drink water. Instead of saying I am going to totally cut out this and that and this I just decided that I was going to have 2 dairy products a day and at least 3-4 veggies/fruit. I still met up with friends and had the occasinoal drink or 4 but I just made sure to stay under my caloric intake.
Overall, I am happy with myself. I did not lose the big 70 lbs I predicted for this year. I still have a long way to go. I still do NOT like to exercise. BUT I am still trying. Thats more than I have done for myself in a long time.
It feels great to be noticed again. It feels great to fit old clothes again. It actually even feels great to blog again..
I am making a promise to myself to come back here more often. I’m making a promise to myself to move my body everyday. I am making a promise to be there for myself more than I am to others.. which is hard because I’m a giver.. but its necessary for ME.
Update pics below!: